Stop giving me chemicals!

Dear God,

The last pizza attempt was a nice try. I expected something fishy in that pizza which was handed over to me with so much love and care but thankfully I only took one slice of it and it still produced the same stomach pain that I have been getting 4 or 5 times in the last few months. You really have a good list of chemicals in your armor! Is someone related to you a doctor or you just google? I now know the pain and know exactly how it feels like. So if I get it one more time, I know whom to give credit to. But this time I would be careful not to consume anything from the sources I don't trust anymore.

You know the difference between this pain and the emotional pain you have given me and that which is paining me every day since the calamity, almost 13 years back? The physical pain simply goes away after sometime. The other pain doesn't. I hope you have some chemicals that help me to get better. Have you even thought about it? If you did, then just let me know which one is good, so that at least I know, you are after all doing something good to me.

This monitoring gives you absolute powers, doesn't it? You get to give me pains and watch me suffer at the same time. Tell me, how are these wireless bugs powered, are they powered by solar? Or have they invented a perpetual energy source? Whatever, it may be, this is good stuff. Add to that, it could read the brain waves too. Simply amazing! I just want to know the bozo who sold them to you. :)

You know what, I always wondered maybe you are a demon slayer or something of that sort. The demon slayers are strong believers in good over evil. And they never get frightened over when someone question their actions, however cruel their actions may be. Because they believe whatever they are doing is in the name of God. Maybe you have that too. I give that to you! What struck me, however, is that they never derive sadistic pleasures from their actions. You know why? Because their hands were controlled by God, if so, how could they enjoy their actions? So you are neither a demon slayer nor have the convictions of a crime fighter!

Another thing I wondered about was may be you have the Godfather complex. You know those dons, who murder people who betray them? Maybe you think I betrayed you, in whatever, convoluted way that maybe, or you thought I was going to betray you. This fitted the bill for a long time, until I realized that Godfathers don't betray the people they don't know about. Just like how they don't want to be betrayed, they don't betray others whom they have no grievances with too. That's the beauty of dons. I mean the good dons. So that leaves the don thing out of the picture.

Finally, you know what I realized? You are just a bully with a twist! A bully who mocks, taunts and ridicules the people they exclude, however rightful they maybe and include the people however wrongful they maybe. The twist being you are a sadistic one who gets turned on by seeing others suffer over and over. And who has no remorse for their actions. Who continue to adamantly hold what they are doing is right, in the same spirit of a demon slayer but without the God part and in the same spirit of a Godfather in the betrayal part.

Next time, if you want to mix something in the food or any other means, just let me know. I will save you all the trouble and maybe I would go and cut myself and suffer for you, so that you can watch and relish!

Regards,

Vivek