Origins

You know God I could trace back to every event and we could fight all day long to find who started it first. But I guess I made more mistakes than I would like to remember. It's alright, in the end my life was worth wreckable. So was my marriage. There were million different ways things could have turned out. But you were there every step of the way to guide it to that inevitability.

I know we both want to give credits to each other on good things. I definitely do. I know you did too. I am not that blind. But you possessed too much information which you were not privy to. And you acted based on the conclusions drawn from these data; many of which are far from the Truth and are ultimately incorrect. This shows that your mind reader is unable to accurately capture the motives - the true essence of free will. Brain waves, maybe yes; intents, a strong no. Coupled with your propensity to get even at every perceived hurt, the kind of monitoring you continue to do on me is a colossal failure. You can't make it right no matter how hard you try.

I don't take sides. I always try to see the justice from all sides. Because I am interested only in the Truth. So when one looks at terrorism and want to really solve it objectively, then one needs to see their justice too. But it's very difficult and that's why this terrorism is going to be around for a long time. In any society and like any angry youngster, I was appalled by certain injustices meted out to certain select group of people. I still do because it very much exists even today. If one sincerely finds the Truth behind them, I am pretty sure one could solve many issues here as well. I am merely stating my viewpoints I had during the short period in my life that you had handpicked as a benchmark and used as a reference to decide my future course but invariably getting most of the inferences wrong. I hope with this new knowledge about me, you could go back and have a different perspective of me; trust me, it would all tally perfectly. I know you would want to give the Truth a chance too. By the way, the information you claim you possess against me are not incriminating at all, in whatever way you look at them. 

You would say these things don't matter anymore and forget the past. I would God and I know that's the logical thing to do too. But erase people's mind and then I would erase mine! And stop violating my rights! To be honest, I don't even mind your monitoring. What bothers me the most is your adjusting of facts to suit the projections you made about me zillion years back. To you these projections are infallibly true. I admire your dogmatic faith in your abilities. I am just questioning the events that led you to your conclusions. If you had wanted any clarification in what I had said in those times, I would have been more than happy to clarify them. What I had said meant different things to you only because you thought I knew more than what I should have known. The Truth is I didn't! I just wish we could blame the fate for these.

I know of your attempts to pester me with what I think of somebody based on what I talked about in private about somebody many years ago. I have bombarded those with more information than what you had hoped for. Well, if your intention was to selectively project me, then that's what you got. Credits to you for successfully evoking disgust and revulsion from many over and over. How many times could you kill a dead person anyway? However my interest has always been in the emotions that should inescapably follow. If you were trying to make a case, so was I!

God, whether you like it or not, you and me are forever entangled! Akin to those conjoined twins, that could read each other's mind.