SuperPosition!

With the wealth of information you had collected about me during the reference period that you had chosen so arbitrarily, you must have found that ascribing me to a particular quality or concept the most difficult, is it not God? Capitalist or communist, materialist or spiritualist, theist or atheist, bright or dull, strong or weak, dead or alive and so on and so forth. I am aware of this duality in me all along. The thing is God, I wanted to choose the most Pure and the most Truthful in any aspect in life. In whatever I chose, I found flaws. And there in lay my frustrations ever since the time I started to know myself. I now realize that there is no such thing exists in this world. But you got to give me credit for looking!

I know you have exploited this particular aspect of me. You quickly did the math and connected the dots. That was the sole intention of the second drug, wasn't it God? What you didn't know was that I was tagging along at the same momentum and it was not very difficult for me to see where you are going. It's just that I was tad late. You figured people would have to agree with you, stand behind you and applaud you. To do that, all you needed was a believable story. And you had set the stage for that so beautifully! I am pretty sure your friends and allies who had helped you achieve this, didn't see your intentions until after they were all neck deep in it. You see God, that's why I don't hold any grudge against them in spite of your attempts to turn me against them. To me all that matters is the Truth!

You know whatever you did to me is the closest I could ever get to a spiritual awakening. You may or may not realize that you had already given me the culmination of any spiritual quest without me going through the associated rigors. Thus I had become a twice born, considered a privilege in the spiritual world, albeit attained through improper channels and I thank you for that. But I already knew the Truth behind such quests at the philosophical level. So you hadn't spoiled me any surprises on that front! You know God, you expected me to have a miserable life yet you didn't know the most painful thing to me would be the fact that the things people have seen or known about me were not the whole Truth. To you God, anything is passable as long as  there is something negative about it. If not in line with your projections, you would be more than willing to add it to your repertoire. And you would predictably deny anything that's out of line or even has the slightest potential to refute your theory!

God you might think my existence is grotesque, incomprehensible and pitiable to you. It ain't! You choose and identify with one aspect and maybe you would fight for it. But I see Beauty and Truth in everything, more than you could possibly imagine. You know even Nature has found three states that anything could exist. For instance the wave, the particle and the wave-particle nature of the most fundamental units of matter that make up the Universe; that makes up you and me. I am the third one. I am the superposition, all by itself! I am the Schrödinger's cat! Thus I am dead and alive simultaneously! You see I am not the mistake you have been trotting along the globe about and I do have a definite place in this Universe. You live by the credentials from this material world but mine are with the true God. Let Him judge me and I will accept it gracefully!